3 Days and Counting...

Surgery #2 was only three days away at this point.  Anxiety had fully kicked in.  I just couldn't shake the fear of another surgery that was about to take place.  You would think that I would be a pro at this by now.  I began to do things to distract my mind from the worry and anxiety that was consistently filling it.  I knew I was going to get through this just fine.  After all, it is God's hands and He never steers me in the wrong direction.  I had to trust Him and I knew it.  So with that in mind, I went outside to watch the sunset.  I enjoyed the nice breeze and immersed myself in the beauties of nature.  Relaxation is key and I had to get myself under control.  

 

 

It's the little things...

Throughout this journey we have had so much support.  I am beyond blessed and thankful for the love and encouragement that surrounds me daily.  Friends and family make an effort to give me the most thoughtful gifts to lift my spirits and remind me of how strong I truly am. 

 

 

 

 

Relaxation & Preparation

As I was preparing for my second surgery, I needed to find ways to get my mind at peace.  I tend to internalize things, so I needed to get my mind off of the upcoming procedure so that I wouldn't start to obsess over it.  I love going to Lush and getting my favorite organic, vegan face and body products.  My top 3 favorite things that I use on a regular basis from there are: Bath Bombs, Lip Scrub, and Ocean Salt!  So... to Lush I went!  I decided that I would re-direct my focus on relaxation.  I knew that the stress and anxiety I was creating for myself was not healthy for my body or mind.  On the nights where I felt extremely tense or stressed out, I would plan a night of relaxation for myself.  I would start a bubble bath, throw in a bath bomb, light a candle and read a book.  The bath bomb would make my water so beautiful.  It creates such a positive energy which is exactly what I needed.

 

 

Each Scar Has A Story To Tell

As I prepare myself for my next surgery, I can't help but look down at my 3 little scars.  The more they healed the smaller they became.  They each have a story to tell.  Little did they know they were about to be re-opened.

Prepping for Surgery

You don't know how strong you are, until being strong is all you have.....  prepping for surgery.

Surgery #2 Date!

                                      Surgery is scheduled for March 14, 2014!

What led to that November 1st Appointment

I forgot to previously post about my ovulation testing after my first surgery was complete.  I started to track my ovulation once I got the all clear from my doctor to start trying again and doing routine bloodowork to track my progesterone.  I was sooooo excited.  I had opted to start trying naturally, without fertility drugs.  This was my ultimate goal in all of this, so I was excited to see what the outcome would be!  I knew that it could take some time for it to happen, but I was excited to be off any sort of medications, and ready to go again.   

              First Month of Ovulation Predictor Kits and Pregnancy Tests post surgery!

 

No success with Month One.  On to Month Two!

 

   

 Shortly after this, the cyst I had became complex.  With that being said, I had been instructed to stop trying and get back on birth control.  It seems like everytime I get 3 steps ahead, and it seems like pregnancy is closer than ever......I get pushed 5 steps back.  

Note:  

 I wanted to post these pictures, even if they are out of sequence.  This is what led to me finding out about my cyst's continuous development, and then proceeded to me scheduling my next surgery. (So you don't get confused)