We started the ultrasound, and my doctor immediately found the cyst. I knew he would. The cyst had not gotten smaller at all....it had actually doubled in size!! How did this even happen?? I had been on continuous birth control for the past 6 weeks and suppressing my cycles! We were so confident that this would work, because it worked the last time we got rid of 2 cysts before my Salpingectomy. My doctor said..."Imagine the size of a golf ball, and compare it to the size of a baseball." That was how much more it had grown.
When the doctors and nurses left the room I just began to cry. My mother-in-law had come to the doctor with me for the first time. She just began to cry with me, because there was nothing she could say to fix things. I remember telling her "Welcome to my world...."
I was crushed once again. Miguel and I had been talking about how amazing it would be to conceive and announce it to our families in such a special way for Christmas. I would get so excited just thinking about how awesome that would truly be. How amazing it would feel to finally have a positive and share it with the world. But in reality, that wouldn't be happening. I just had to face it. My doctor decided to hold off on surgery at the moment. We decided to start a stronger, more potent birth control for another 6 weeks, while continuing to suppress my cycles. He wanted to do anything he could to avoid another procedure, if at all possible. So over the next 6 weeks, I would be anxious. I was ready to start my new pills called Low-Ogestrel and was praying that they would get the job done.
Next appointment.....January 21!
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