Friday, January 31, 2014
Prepping for my December 10 appointment
I was praying and hoping that everything was going to go as planned for my December 10th appointment. I knew that if the cyst was still there, then I was going to need another surgery, which was the last thing I wanted. I had finished my first pack of Sprintec and was starting the second pack of pills, while still suppressing my cycles. Throughout this time I still felt the pain and discomfort of the cyst on my right side. I just had a feeling that it wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. Two weeks to go...
Thursday, January 23, 2014
November 7, 2013: Results
I was so anxious each day as I waited for my doctor's office to call me and give me the results for my blood work. I remember I was at work, going about my day, and I saw my cell phone ringing. It was my doctor's office. My heart literally dropped, and I got butterflies in the pit of my stomach. I instantly felt sooo nervous. I told my co-worker that I needed to step off of the floor and take the call. Without hesitation, I answered the phone......Please let me get some good news....
Finally some good results!!!! I did not have a tumor!!!!! THANK GOD! I told my doctor how thankful I was and how scared I had been. He told me he was very confident that this is what the results would be, but at the same time, he can totally understand how it can be quite nerve wrecking. The great thing about my doctor is that he is always reminding me to think positive thoughts! I would continue taking the Sprintec for the remainder of the 6 week period. During this time I would be skipping the sugar pills and going straight into the next pack, suppressing my cycles. I was more than ready for my next appointment.....December 10.
Finally some good results!!!! I did not have a tumor!!!!! THANK GOD! I told my doctor how thankful I was and how scared I had been. He told me he was very confident that this is what the results would be, but at the same time, he can totally understand how it can be quite nerve wrecking. The great thing about my doctor is that he is always reminding me to think positive thoughts! I would continue taking the Sprintec for the remainder of the 6 week period. During this time I would be skipping the sugar pills and going straight into the next pack, suppressing my cycles. I was more than ready for my next appointment.....December 10.
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
November 1, 2013 Appointment
The day of my appointment was here. It was November 1, 2013, and we would be doing ultrasounds to see if my simple ovarian cyst was still simple. This is what I was ultimately hoping for, so I could keep trying to conceive naturally. After everything Miguel and I had been through, the last thing we wanted was more setbacks. At this point, I just wasn't sure I could handle any more setbacks, mentally.
The news was not what I had expected....
The ultrasounds showed that my cyst had turned into a complex cyst with abnormal characteristics called palpitations......or at least I think that's what they were called. This caused a concerned for my doctor, because the abnormal characteristics were not a good sign. I was emotionally drained at this point. This meant that trying to conceive at all, was completely out of the question until further notice. He told me that they were going to do some blood work to make sure the cyst was not a tumor. I was like....What!! A tumor?!?!? What was going on??? If it were a tumor, I would need surgery immediately, so they could do a biopsy and make sure it wasn't cancer.
My doctor was very thorough about about explaining his thoughts on the matter, and made me feel very comfortable about the entire situation as a whole. At the end of the day, deep down I was very scared. The doctor told me that with my age, and being in good health, that I should not be too concerned, and the blood work was just something we needed to do to be completely sure.
The only thing we could do now is wait for the bloodwork to come back and pray that this was not a tumor. Dr. Crochet put me on a birth control called Sprintec to help get rid of the cyst, that had quickly become so complex. I was on edge, and I knew I would stay on edge until I got my results back from my bloodwork, which would take approximately a week. I would now have to wait another 6 weeks until my next ultrasound.
Why is it that every time I feel like I am 2 steps closers, I get kicked 5 steps back. When things seem to be going the right way, something else negative seems to come up, and the wait is longer. I don't have all of the answers, but what I do have is my faith. I'm not sure why things are happening this way, but the only thing I can do is continue to stay strong and keep my faith stronger.
The news was not what I had expected....
The ultrasounds showed that my cyst had turned into a complex cyst with abnormal characteristics called palpitations......or at least I think that's what they were called. This caused a concerned for my doctor, because the abnormal characteristics were not a good sign. I was emotionally drained at this point. This meant that trying to conceive at all, was completely out of the question until further notice. He told me that they were going to do some blood work to make sure the cyst was not a tumor. I was like....What!! A tumor?!?!? What was going on??? If it were a tumor, I would need surgery immediately, so they could do a biopsy and make sure it wasn't cancer.
My doctor was very thorough about about explaining his thoughts on the matter, and made me feel very comfortable about the entire situation as a whole. At the end of the day, deep down I was very scared. The doctor told me that with my age, and being in good health, that I should not be too concerned, and the blood work was just something we needed to do to be completely sure.
The only thing we could do now is wait for the bloodwork to come back and pray that this was not a tumor. Dr. Crochet put me on a birth control called Sprintec to help get rid of the cyst, that had quickly become so complex. I was on edge, and I knew I would stay on edge until I got my results back from my bloodwork, which would take approximately a week. I would now have to wait another 6 weeks until my next ultrasound.
Why is it that every time I feel like I am 2 steps closers, I get kicked 5 steps back. When things seem to be going the right way, something else negative seems to come up, and the wait is longer. I don't have all of the answers, but what I do have is my faith. I'm not sure why things are happening this way, but the only thing I can do is continue to stay strong and keep my faith stronger.
Routine Doctor Appointments
As I continued to try naturally with the cyst in place, I would continue to watch my ovulation and get checked regularly. My next appointment would be 6 weeks from the day they discovered the simple cyst, just to monitor it and make sure it has not changed in size or in it's characteristics. If all goes well, I can continue on my journey of trying naturally, which would be a dream come true!!
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Love & Support
Throughout this process, I have had such unconditional support and love. I can't even put into words, the love I have felt from family and friends. It doesn't matter how many times I text or call my friends and family, they never turn me away. Who would have known that people really cared about what I was going through in my everyday life. Miguel and I are so blessed to have such amazing people who care, and support us throughout this journey.
When people ask me how I stay so strong, I have a simple, honest answer for them. God. I have a lot of faith and I thank Him through the good and the bad. I thank Him for my struggle, because it has changed me as a person and as a woman. I know that He has a divine plan for us and I trust in that. I trust that everything happens exactly the way it is suppose to happen.
My husband has been my biggest fan. He is my rock and has stepped up as a man, and a husband throughout this journey. He gives me the love, support, and security that I need to push through. My love for him has grown more that I could have ever imagined. When you go through something like infertility, it is definitely a make or break kind of thing. We have definitely grown so much since the beginning of this journey, and I feel that together, we can overcome anything.
I have also met such amazing girls on Instagram that I call my TTCSisters. We support eachother, and follow eachother's journeys. We give each other support and advice. After all, you don't understand what it feels like mentally and physically unless you have personally gone through it. We are eachother's support system.
Not to mention I have The.Best.Mom.EVER.
When you have friends and family like mine, you have no choice but to move forward with confidence, and know that everything is going to be ok. They constantly build me up. When I am feeling down, I allow myself to break down, and release whatever emotions I need to get out.... and then I move on. I don't allow myself to have a pity party, and here's why... There are many people out there who have it way worse than I do. There are children sick and dying. There are people out there who are fighting for just one more breath of life, and who would gladly trade places with me. This little thing called infertility... is nothing compared to others struggle with.
When people ask me how I stay so strong, I have a simple, honest answer for them. God. I have a lot of faith and I thank Him through the good and the bad. I thank Him for my struggle, because it has changed me as a person and as a woman. I know that He has a divine plan for us and I trust in that. I trust that everything happens exactly the way it is suppose to happen.
My husband has been my biggest fan. He is my rock and has stepped up as a man, and a husband throughout this journey. He gives me the love, support, and security that I need to push through. My love for him has grown more that I could have ever imagined. When you go through something like infertility, it is definitely a make or break kind of thing. We have definitely grown so much since the beginning of this journey, and I feel that together, we can overcome anything.
I have also met such amazing girls on Instagram that I call my TTCSisters. We support eachother, and follow eachother's journeys. We give each other support and advice. After all, you don't understand what it feels like mentally and physically unless you have personally gone through it. We are eachother's support system.
Not to mention I have The.Best.Mom.EVER.
When you have friends and family like mine, you have no choice but to move forward with confidence, and know that everything is going to be ok. They constantly build me up. When I am feeling down, I allow myself to break down, and release whatever emotions I need to get out.... and then I move on. I don't allow myself to have a pity party, and here's why... There are many people out there who have it way worse than I do. There are children sick and dying. There are people out there who are fighting for just one more breath of life, and who would gladly trade places with me. This little thing called infertility... is nothing compared to others struggle with.
Monday, January 6, 2014
Contintuing The Journey After Surgery
After
surgery, I began to do ovulation predictor kits, and would also get
blood work done to check my progesterone levels. My first month of
doing ovulation predictor kits after surgery came back positive, and my
bloodwork for my progesterone came back as a 13.4. This was exciting
because it showed that I had good ovulation! I finally had something to
get excited about! The next month I tested my ovulation once again.
It was positive! I got my blood work, as usual, and my progesterone
still detected ovulation, but had dropped to about a 10. Regardless of
my progesterone slightly dropping it felt good to know that my body was
getting itself back on track.
I didn't get pregnant either month, although I started to continue to feel a dull pain on my right side. My first initial thought was that maybe this was from my surgery. But as time went on, I thought, surely this couldn't be my ovary still trying to heal itself. Weeks had already gone by since my surgery, wouldn't it have healed already? I knew what this feeling was.... I had developed an ovarian cyst. I scheduled a doctors appointment, and requested that they schedule an ultrasound for me to find out what was causing this pain and discomfort.
I went in and had an ultrasound done. Sure enough... I was right. I had developed a right ovarian cyst. Although this was quite a bummer, there was good news to this. It was just a "simple" ovarian cyst. This meant that it was not be of concern, and I could go back for a follow up ultrasound in 6 weeks. While I was there they also did some blood work to check my white blood cell count to make sure I did not have an infection. In the meantime, I had the 'ok' from my doctor to keep trying to conceive naturally.
I didn't get pregnant either month, although I started to continue to feel a dull pain on my right side. My first initial thought was that maybe this was from my surgery. But as time went on, I thought, surely this couldn't be my ovary still trying to heal itself. Weeks had already gone by since my surgery, wouldn't it have healed already? I knew what this feeling was.... I had developed an ovarian cyst. I scheduled a doctors appointment, and requested that they schedule an ultrasound for me to find out what was causing this pain and discomfort.
I went in and had an ultrasound done. Sure enough... I was right. I had developed a right ovarian cyst. Although this was quite a bummer, there was good news to this. It was just a "simple" ovarian cyst. This meant that it was not be of concern, and I could go back for a follow up ultrasound in 6 weeks. While I was there they also did some blood work to check my white blood cell count to make sure I did not have an infection. In the meantime, I had the 'ok' from my doctor to keep trying to conceive naturally.
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